Em Urdaneta

"Words - so innocent and powerless as they are, as standing in a dictionary, how potent for good and..."

Tue, 14 May 2013 13:18:15 +0800

“Words - so innocent and powerless as they are, as standing in a dictionary, how potent for good and evil they become in the hands of one who knows how to combine them.”

- Nathaniel Hawthorne (via deliriant)

followandreblog: Your vintage blog deserves this

Mon, 13 May 2013 15:02:08 +0800

followandreblog:

Your vintage blog deserves this

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Tue, 07 May 2013 16:40:11 +0800

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Mon, 06 May 2013 23:04:26 +0800

Mayday Parade - Three Cheers For Five Years (Acoustic) This song...

Mon, 06 May 2013 22:36:05 +0800

Mayday Parade - Three Cheers For Five Years (Acoustic)

This song never fails to make me cry. Brings back a lot of memories.

For heaven’s sake I know you’re sorry
But you won’t stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I’m dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you’d never be the same

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Mon, 06 May 2013 21:37:07 +0800

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Mon, 06 May 2013 21:06:32 +0800

person: hey baby did it hurt when you fell from heaven

Mon, 06 May 2013 21:05:38 +0800

person: hey baby did it hurt when you fell from heaven
me: are you implying that i am satan
person: no, i--
me: because you're right i am

YUP

Sun, 05 May 2013 01:22:18 +0800

YUP

You can actually feel it.

Sun, 05 May 2013 01:06:24 +0800

You can actually tell and feel when you’re starting to fade away from someone. The conversations get shorter, they get less meaningful, less exciting. You can feel the wall that’s coming up between you two. And then in the end, you’re back to being strangers.

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Sat, 04 May 2013 15:47:18 +0800

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Sat, 04 May 2013 15:41:59 +0800

One of those nights.

Fri, 03 May 2013 23:00:47 +0800

I basically spent 3 minutes staring at the computer screen before I started typing this. I really don’t know how to start this entry even though I have a lot of things on my mind right now. I know, it’s weird – I’m saying that I have a lot on my mind but I just can’t find the right words to express how I feel right now. All I know is I am tired. I am sick and tired of everything. I am tired of being scolded. I am tired of being pushed around. I am tired of being ignored. I am tired of being neglected. I am tired of being alone.

I may have friends and family around me but I still feel empty and alone most of the time. I feel like there is no one else that I can depend on except myself. I don’t know what to do with my life. I am lost and I am not really sure if I can find my way back. I need someone to guide and help me get back on track and make me feel that life is still worth living.

I want to go somewhere far away and never come back. I just want to be with my dad. He is the only one who’ll understand me. He’s the only one who’ll let me cry in his arms and won’t ask a thing. He’ll just hug me; letting me cry my heart out until I fall asleep. I miss him so much it hurts. I really want to be with him tonight. But the only way to be with him again is if I die right now. Even though I feel really useless and all the pain I feel right now is eating me up inside, I don’t have the guts to kill myself. It’s not that I haven’t thought about taking away my own life before; it’s just that I know my dad would not like it, even if my reason of doing so is “to be with him again”.

I really miss my dad. Especially during times like this. Before starting this entry, I was really thinking of hurting myself. I want to stab myself with a knife, cut my wrists, and bang my head to a wall. I am so glad that I did no such thing. I may have the tendency of taking away my own life but it will not happen tonight. I am still hoping that better days will come.

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